Exactly 20yrs ago today I held you in my arms as you took your first breath. I felt such tenderness and love for you, pride that I had been blessed with such a beautiful, perfect baby boy. Who would have known that our time together would be so short and I would also have to endure the pain of watching you take your last breath. Though I am sure that my pain does not compare to the pain and fear you experienced. I wish god had been kinder to you, you never deserved to suffer in the way that you did, you were always, beautful and perfect, kind and considerate, loving and funny. My love for you is as strong as it has ever been but coupled now with the pain of missing you so much. I love you and miss you more than I can ever express. Until we meet again, my lovely little man. Thinking of you always. xx Mum